Discovery - maybe even Covid19 has emotional components.

I was really very unwell with Covid19 and went down with it right at the beginning of the lockdown in the UK. I was very surprised to get it. I suppose like many people, I thought I was immune to everything but, alas, no. And I was quite seriously ill. Though I really appreciate that I was lucky as I did get through it.

Having got over the worse bit of it, fortunately I was able to stay out of hospital, I was taking weeks to recover and was left with nausea, heart rhythm irregularities and fatigue.

As I think the way I do, that most things have an emotional component, I started to wonder "why was I not recovering" and "why did I have my particular set of symptoms?" What were my particular symptoms telling me?

It seemed to me that the virus had put my body into high alert, that I was using energy to recover which had been used to suppress symptoms and now they were here - big time.

I was talking to a Lifestyle Prescriptions expert about my nausea and retching which is often an inner ear problem, that is, to do with balance. She said that these problems were associated with a fear of falling, being out of control and/or balance and I immediately had an "aha" moment. This was related to my falling off horses. With that insight, my issues with nausea and retching diminished over the next few days but I was still left with the unpleasant irregular heartbeats.

I'd had these ever since I was 25 or so. Not badly and when I was checked out with all the usual tests, my heart was completely normal and healthy. However when I became ill with M.E./CFS, tachycardia had been an issue. So rhythm disturbances were not new to me.

I meditated on this issue for days, what was I feeling, what was my heart telling me, what was disturbing my peace, my rhythm? What emotions were disturbing to me? What emotions didn't I want to feel? Suddenly I remembered an incident when I was 17 and felt the intense anger that I suppressed at the time. Again, with this insight, the palpitations have diminished and really no longer trouble me. I have been carrying this anger in my heart for over 50 years and I didn't know it.

Following this insight, my energy is coming back and I have now turned the corner on my recovery. So even a virus has something to tell us, something to teach us from an inner perspective.

Interestingly, my husband didn't get Covid19, even though he was in very close proximity to me. Similarly, he had bronchitis and conjunctivitis in December and I didn't get those! Curious? Maybe, maybe not! I also didn't get the lung involvement with Covid19 so perhaps lung issues (territorial fear or fright according to meta-health and Lifestyle Prescriptions), are not my issues.